being lead through the triumph in Christ…

Those who sow in tears shall reap with joyful shouting. (Psalm 126:5)

 The Lord gave me this verse a couple of days ago. He’s known for a while now that I’ve been carrying around a heavy spirit. I’ve felt weighted down with change and the dirtiness of spiritual battles running ramped everywhere around me. Constantly I’ve found myself having to refocus my thoughts and ask God to blanket my heart with peace. Several times while driving, a worship song will cross my iPod that says just the right thing to cause a steady stream of tears as I sing along. I can’t tell you how many times I have replayed Come to Me off the new Bethel album. That song seems to have been written exactly for my current circumstances.

My sweet husband and I had a conversation recently that was hard but freeing at the same time. I’m still reeling from it and seeking the Lord on what He wants my next move to be. In some ways I feel like I’m going back to step one, but in others I feel that He is providing space for creativity. I will say this, throughout the talk I couldn’t help but notice the level of faith that my husband has for what God is doing in this season of our life. It just blows me away. He is such an incredible leader and I am so blessed to be his wife. Even though my heart was sinking He seemed to somehow keep it from drowning completely.

Today God gave me this verse…

But thanks be to God, who always leads us in triumph in Christ, and manifests through us the sweet aroma of the knowledge of Him in every place.

2 Corinthians 2:14

I don’t understand why the Lord has placed us where He has. There must be something He knows that we don’t! All I can do right now is continue to be steadfast in what I know He has called me, us, to do. And one thing is for sure, I’m really looking forward to that joyful shouting and the sweet aroma of His love.